Someone who knows me well remarked the other day that I seem like such a nice guy when I teach my yoga class, but often less so when I am not. I was a bit offended. After asking myself what it is then that makes me stubborn, difficult, moody and even miserable when I am not so nice I understood something quite vital - it is when I am not in the flow of things that I become “less nice”.
I become less nice, or pleasant when I do things I don’t like doing. I am far more pleasant, excited and passionate when I am “in my flow”, in the fullness of my being when I am living my passions. We all do.
After a lot more thinking about being in the flow two options came to mind. I can aim for less of the things I don’t like doing and more of those I love, and I can change my attitude to the things I don’t like doing.
Of course getting a balance between doing what we like doing and embracing “the other” apsects is one of the major challanges that lies at the centre of well-being. It is very do-able to occasionally wash the dishes with a Zen-like approach of “I did the dishes when I was unenlightened and then now that I am enlightened I still have to do the dishes”. As it is another matter entirely doing dishes for a living when you rather want to be a chef (even if you have to do your own washing up :-0), I realised that I need to continue making the changes neccessary to do “more cooking and less washing up”.
While there always are and will be compromises, even, or especially when gearing up towards shifting into a zone of doing what we are passionate about, there is a huge difference between sacrificing an ideal by not living it at all, and not living the ideal, unreal dream of a perfect, seamless life 24 hours a day.
But the fact that we have to do the things we like doing to be a nice person came up with a resounding “Yes!” in m heart. The same person that got me thinking about this in the first place also remarked that I seem really happy, glowing when I am creative. I thought about this too, and then decided to make every effort to be more creative. This person noticed my passion and good mood when I was in the flow, composing and recording music. I worked with this idea and opened my schedule to allow more creative time.
An important detailo here is that I also realised it was not only about the result - how “good” the music I created was, but rather about how good I feel when I am playing, literally. Especially when I realised that the challenge is not really about how good my class or how perfect my product is - it is not my ego that is at stake, but precisely the opposite. When I achieve simple being; sharing and developing whatever talent I have, I achieve my “being-ness”, the Zen practice of the extraordinary ordinary.
There are compromises of course - working at your craft on a Friday evening instead of going out, technical hassles, budgeting considerations, learning curve frustrations, and let-downs but hey, I always found that being a guru and an artist (i.e. bein gyour own wise, creative self) is not easy but not that hard either. It is your attitude to learning, obstacles and growth that detrmines the “hardness”.
I always try to remember the Louise Hay affirmation that goes something like this: “Bless your current workplace, your job, your boss. Then visualize your ideal occupation and workplace”. Aim to do what you love, but love what you do now. Create a space to move forward into without hating the current. It may be a gradual process or a sudden shift, a 360 degree turnaround with massive changes. It does not matter, as long as you open your mind, and heart, to change.
You may have to give up job security, or you may land up challenging yourself immensely and then doubting your decisions. You may even find that the new life you chose has just as many compromises as the old one: you may become “more Zen”, but life, gravity and new challenges remain firmly in place - you still have to do your dishes.
The one compromise you should not be making is to stick to your limitations and limiting thoughts. If you are unhappy with your life then start looking for change right now. Look even if you are happy, or think you are content - don’t be nasty and discontented, just start looking for a move to a nicer office, another part of town or even another area of employment, anything that will improve the quality of your “being”.
And find ways to start doing what you like. Think about setting up your life to accommodate your passion. The money you are making right now may enable you to make to change your hobby into a business. The connections you have at work or socially may land you the job you would rather be doing. You may start something on the side, do a photography course and publish your pictures on the web. Start fixing things, turn you garage into a carpentry shop. Don’t wait for the day you retire to live your life.
You may be a high powered figurehead, or fill any level of position, but either way you are probably almost always busy; doing things, work, chores, chasing good times. If you are doing what you like doing and it makes you happy then fine, but chances are that you are not. If your busyness does not allow you to also do the things that makes you happy than you are not truly happy. Then you are either extremely Zen or gravely suppressing your true spirit.
Think about this. Consider how nice you are really, and when you are nice - or if you are just being nice because it is a conditioned response, or if you are radiating a deep sense of happy be-ing, being in the flow. Check your niceness out. Evaluate whether you are doing what you love doing, if you are driven by your talents charged by the energy of a profound connection to the purpose of your life. You will know if you’re not.
Ask for guidance to remedy the situation if you’re not. Ask your heart what it is that you really love doing most, and then find a way to do some of it some of the time. Meantime learn to love what you are doing at the moment, knowing that you are moving towards doing more of what you love doing.
Continue to follow the path indicated by your heart.